Taking meaning from songs is really impactful. <3 I do it all the time - I only remember the good ones, the ones that gave me strength or helped me make decisions. But I know I had some like yours, too, that highlight the pain.

<3 You'll be able to do it. You got through it this far! (and you stayed much longer than I thought you would over the last few years - I'm not saying I blame you, no! I'm saying you can bear it while you get everything ready.) And then you can leave. <3