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so i didn't get the job. they sent me a nice little rejection letter saying they would keep my resume on file and all that junk.

oh well. in a way i'm kinda relieved. i mean, i want a new job, but i really would like something less boring. i'd really like to work as like a vet assisstant or at a rescue clinic or something. working with animals is something i've always wanted to do. but i don't want to be a vet. i couldn't really handle putting animals down. even tho i know it's better that way sometimes. only problem is that it's really hard to find a place that's hiring. especailly considering i have no degree and no experience other than the fact that i've had animals all my life. ::sigh:: oh well.

in other news i've figuratively slapped myself in the face and decided to try harder at not being so slutty. not an easy thing to do, but i'm determined to not go any farther past the line than i already have. and in reality there is only one person that i really want to be with in any way shape or form. he's kinda become the voice in the back of my head. and i know he would not approve of some of the things i've done recently. and since his opinion matters to me because of the fact that he's the only person that's ever been completely honest with me regardless of whether or not it might hurt my feelings i don't want to dissapoint him. or lose his friendship.

so while i will still be my same flirty self at parties and other situations, there will be no more random making out or other things going on. if you want that, find it elsewhere. i'm done. i am making myself only available to one person. for as long as he's willing to put up with me.

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so i didn't get the job. they sent me a nice little rejection letter saying they would keep my resume on file and all that junk.

oh well. in a way i'm kinda relieved. i mean, i want a new job, but i really would like something less boring. i'd really like to work as like a vet assisstant or at a rescue clinic or something. working with animals is something i've always wanted to do. but i don't want to be a vet. i couldn't really handle putting animals down. even tho i know it's better that way sometimes. only problem is that it's really hard to find a place that's hiring. especailly considering i have no degree and no experience other than the fact that i've had animals all my life. ::sigh:: oh well.

in other news i've figuratively slapped myself in the face and decided to try harder at not being so slutty. not an easy thing to do, but i'm determined to not go any farther past the line than i already have. and in reality there is only one person that i really want to be with in any way shape or form. he's kinda become the voice in the back of my head. and i know he would not approve of some of the things i've done recently. and since his opinion matters to me because of the fact that he's the only person that's ever been completely honest with me regardless of whether or not it might hurt my feelings i don't want to dissapoint him. or lose his friendship.

so while i will still be my same flirty self at parties and other situations, there will be no more random making out or other things going on. if you want that, find it elsewhere. i'm done. i am making myself only available to one person. for as long as he's willing to put up with me.